It seems I'm not the only one

So I haven't posted in awhile because there really isn't anything to say. No new updates in our life or in this process of trying to conceive. We went on birth control a few months ago and this past Sunday I had a pretty bad anxiety attack. We started doing some research and apparently lots of women have anxiety on this particular brand. We also started thinking about when I have anxiety and we realized every time I have had an anxiety attack I have been on some kind of manufactured hormone. I actually never had an anxiety attack until I was on birth control.

So the nurse says I need to come in and talk to them, and we should consider going on something like Zoloft. I'm not saying I don't need medicine for the anxiety, but I am saying that if a person never has it before being on hormones and there is a link then it pretty much explains it to me. She was also concerned because of the PCOS there is no way to regulate my cycle if we aren't trying to get pregnant without the birth control pills. Well, I'm sorry, but I am not going to take them if they cause anxiety...we will HAVE to figure something else out. I'm almost positive that there is something natural that can help...you know like exercising and losing weight. I know that is up to me, but I am almost positive that with a little self-control and motivation I can do it.

I also have been having a lot of friends get pregnant and have babies recently. After a miscarriage in September it is harder to deal with, but I want to be happy for them...I just also want it to be me. However, it makes sense for us to have at least one job between the two of us. I'm just frustrated!

New Kids On The Block

This has nothing to do with TTC, fertility or PCOS, but is does have to do with my life. Sunday night I had the immense pleasure of going with a great friend to see New Kids On The Block in concert at the American Airlines Center in Dallas. My dear husband bought me a ticket for my birthday. Lauren and I had a great time, and it was like no other concert I have ever seen. Hands down the best I have ever been to. My parents didn't allow me to have any NKOTB stuff growing up so this was my rebellion coming out. However, these guys are AMAZING performers, and they give you a show that takes your breath away.

We also had really great seats, and got some amazing pictures when they came down to the circular stage. Some old lady with a boring bra threw it on the stage. I kept thinking to myself...if you are going to give them your bra at least make it cute. Something colorful, lacy or animal print. No it was a plain, boring, playtex bra. Who would have thought. Anyway, I had a great time, and wish I was still there, but a husband who is kind enough to send you to Dallas with one of your closest friends for the weekend...is one that you want to come back home to. So it is nice to be home with him, but it was a dream come true. Thank you my love for sending me!!!

When you don't know what to say...

Some of you know that I have been a little sensitive lately, and for those of you whom I love and respect dearly, but you can't comprehend how I am feeling on this journey of trying to conceive...I found this on a friend's blog and it really is enlightening. So this post is dedicated to those of you who really want to be supportive, but don't know what to say. Infertility Etiquette.

I hope this helps as you are being supportive of me.

Cynthia

Looks like I will still be waiting...

I heard from a pretty solid source today that Williams Elementary was assigned a 2nd grade teacher from a school who had cut classrooms. So it looks like I will still be waiting for my teaching position, but God is faithful.