It's been one of those days....

Have you ever had one of those days when it just seems like nothing goes the way it should?  Or more likely the way you want it.

Today has been one of those days for me.  I woke up late, so I was running late for school.  On my way to school I talked to my dad and found out that there are plans for a small wedding ceremony for my brother and his wife so that they are married in the U.S. and can go back to Korea.  Then my students have just been out of control, and I have been less than patient.  On top of all of that I felt like I had to rearrange my schedule to include other things and other people decided to run late which of course throws everything else spiraling out of control. 

It's days like this that I am shown that my heart is truly focused on myself and not Christ.  I get frustrated when I realize this because that is really what I want my students to see.  I want them to see Christ.  I want them to know Him and feel unconditionally loved, and on days like today it is very, very hard to keep persevering. 

I'm definitely still a work in progress.

Laparoscopy update

All went well on Thursday with the laparoscopy.  My body feels completely abnormal right now, but I think that is to be expected since there was so much done inside my body.

I am sore from the surgery, and my reproductive organs are sore and cramping from all that was done to them, but I think I am going to make it.  I am just taking time to rest and heal.


Here is what Dr. S.  said:
1) There was very, very mild endometriosis  on my fallopian tubes.  He lasered that off.
2) There was a lot of scar tissue from a previous surgery.  He lasered that off.  FYI, when I was born the tubes that connect my bladder to my kidneys didn't go in at an angle like they were supposed to.  They were straight up and down causing me to have bladder/kidney infections for the first several years of my life.  I had surgery to correct that right before I turned 4....hence the scar tissue.
3) He flushed my fallopian tubes with a dye to make sure they were all clear. 
4)  He lasered holes into my ovaries to help remove the cysts I have from PCOS, and to help shrink my ovaries (they are the size of my uterus and they are supposed to be smaller).
5) He gave me before and after pictures which are kind of gross and I don't really know what they are all of so I will spare you.

So after all of that, I am home, resting, Paul is being such a dear and taking care of me, and I am waiting patiently for things to return back to normal.

Thank you so much for your prayers.  Even those of you that I don't know who are praying.  I truly appreciate it!

An Update...

So along with preparing for adoption, we have been trying to get pregnant for several years.  Throughout those years we have had to change doctors because one doctor thought nothing was wrong with me a having 2 periods a year,  I have been diagnosed with PCOS and had a miscarriage. It seems like it has taken awhile to get here, but I am now sitting at the point where my doctor wants to know if something else is preventing conception.  My first instinct was to just give up, and focus on finishing the school year and getting into our new house.  But as I talked with my doctor it seems that there might be something else going on...endometriosis.

As we talked it became very clear that he has a plan and given my symptoms he wants to take care of it.  So his recommendation is a laparoscopy.  Basically I go in, he makes a small incision, fills my abdomen with carbon dioxide, looks for any signs of endometriosis, lasers it off, checks to see that the fallopian tubes are clear, if not, clears them, and then lasers some cysts out of my ovaries.  All of that and I am supposed to be in good enough shape to run on Sunday.

So we decided to move forward with it since insurance is covering it, and I will go in on Thursday, have the procedure and hopefully I will be fixed!  I'm praying, and I would appreciate yours too.  I am always a little nervous about general anesthesia...

Until next time...

Easter Weekend and a New House

Over Easter we went to Mineola to visit Paul's side of the family, and we had a wonderful time.  God has truly blessed me with the BEST in-laws ever!  I know you may think yours are better, but I am telling you I feel more loved when I am with them, and I feel like they have always been part of my family.  They ROCK!

I also really like that we are the only aunt and uncle that Clara and Grady have so Clara gets SUPER excited to see us.  I'm positive Grady does too, but he just has a hard time expressing it as he is just 2 1/2 months old.  I got lots of Grady snuggles and Clara and I had a lot of fun playing, walking outside, and building a city with the foam toys Grandmother got for bath time.  (She wanted me to go with her for bath time).  She has such a precious spirit, and is fixing to turn 2, and I am constantly amazed by how caring she is.  She wants to make sure that Grady has his pacifier whenever he cries, she does an amazing job "organizing" and "cleaning" which I am sure she got from her Grandmother, and she loves to snuggle and give hugs and kisses.  She makes you feel loved and she isn't even 2 yet.  I am so excited to how she grows into the woman that God has created her to be.  

Anyway, while we were there we were fed wonderfully (and Dad C makes the best Charro and Baked Beans I have EVER HAD, and I am positive that it isn't just the bean pot he used).  I also had a chance to make French Onion Soup again and this time with Gruyere cheese.  

Now, I have read a lot about this cheese, and I was so excited to try it.  I tried it before cooking it and it was wonderful, I smelled it after taking it out of the oven and I wondered what I had done to my soup.  But let me say this, once it cooled a little I realized that is some of the BEST cheese I have ever had.  I don't say that lightly...I really have never had cheese that is as good as Gruyere and I am going to only have to use that when I cook something that would take Swiss Cheese.  If you haven't tried it then feel free to come on over and I will make some French Onion Soup and you will see that I am right!!

On to more exciting things, we have put our house on the market (if you know ANYONE who is looking in South Austin PLEASE send them by), and we have put a contract to build in Buda.  We went to decorating today, and I am SO EXCITED about this new house I can't wait to move in.  I will try to take pictures through the process and post some pictures soon of some of the options we chose.  I think you will like them!