I haven't figured out yet how to balance these feelings. I heard her heartbeat this morning and was able to breathe a sigh of relief and laugh at how silly she was being. She was moving, and kicking, and spinning, and I was amazed at how active she was. I still am.
I know she must miss his movements. Having her playmate in there with her. I know that having his body there has to give her comfort, but I wonder if she misses him like I do.
I love that I serve a God who works all things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Even though I don't understand what His purpose is right now. I wonder if I ever will.
Please continue to pray for Julia to grow and grow stronger. We need to get to at least 23 weeks so that she can live outside. Of course, we are praying that she makes it to 37 weeks. We have been told that her going to 40 weeks could actually do more harm than good. So it looks like we will be delivering at 37 weeks. Your prayers are appreciated.
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Those feelings are totally natural. I remember feeling the same way when my sister was born - holding her and being so happy to have her, but missing my brother who was still born 2 years prior. All I can say is that in time, you will work those feelings out.
Here is a prayer I found when I was dealing with Wally & Liz's loss. It might bring some comfort to you as well...
http://www.allaboutlifechallenges.org/dealing-with-miscarriage-faq.htm
Love, hugs and prayers....
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